| Breeetarded ( @ 2008-03-27 22:20:00 |
| Current location: | My Sofa |
| Current mood: |
A little better....but
I finally got out of my bath, I am feeling a bit better than I did yesterday. Thanks to brendan giving me strep but it is alright. Builds up the good ole immunity system! My hands and feet are still a bit red from the rash from the meds I am allergic to, but my elbows and knees are still a rashy but give it the weekend and I’ll be better. My vacation was a meaningful trip, I finally met the most amazing people I have ever met. I know that sounds silly for only hanging out with them a few times.
Sadly I feel a bit lonely since I came back to Arizona. When i was out in California I felt I finally found people I could hang out with on a regular basis. I felt accepted by everyone, no one judged me. Every building looks the same out here. Everyone looks so fake, except for when I was hanging out with everyone. They looked real, they never looked or acted fake, they seemed to be true to themselves and I am actually jealous of them.
I am still trying to find myself. I have a few friends here, but in California I felt at home, I could do whatever I wanted and I could be anyone I wanted. I miss being out there :( I miss being surrounded by so many wonderful positive people. But I need to work out finding who I am so I can be more of a positive person.